Sorry for being unable to join the cell yesterday. In fact, I want to share with you the feeling after reading a book "Stormie" by Stormie Omartian and watching 2 DVDs from Goodnews Communications.
I found these very inspiring because there are not too much "long-winded boring difficult preaching" (sorry for what I have described in this way...). Instead, very interesting to learn about the work and schedule of God. It's always amazing. Very often, we need to experience terrible heart-breaking moments, "self-tortures" and temptations before we can truly understand "it is God's arrangement".
As a new believer (ohoh...I don't know how to describe at all), I found it much more easily to learn about God by sharing the experience of other people.
I keep praying everyday now. As my counsellor suggested, I can pray a while and then be silent for a while, truly waiting for some possible feedback from our Father at heart. Hope one day, I can get rid of the negative thoughts and self-inferior feeling about my current situation......
Hope that it makes myself feel very natural to melt in. Of course, my biggest problem is to go to church regularly.